The connected life

by Suw on May 13, 2005

Sitting on the steps of Eros at Piccadilly Circus with all the tourists and pigeons, waiting for a friend to arrive. Elliott Smith whispers to me, 'There's nothing wrong that wasn't wrong before'. The cool air is a relief after the stuffiness of the Underground.
Blogging from the Treo feels completely different to blogging on the laptop or the PC. Somehow it's more visceral, more immediate, maybe a little bit more confessional. And no spellchecker so you get to see all my errors.
Life's been weird lately. So much happening, most of it outside of my control. Communications fucked up all over the place. I spend so much time online yet some days I stare at my buddy list and feel completely disconnected. I bounce up and down to London, have these short, intense bursts of social contact and then it's back to my isolation cell. And still no escape plan, just random day release passes.
Lots of stuff is going well, you'll be pleased to hear. Lots of other stuff is waiting for approval and release. Lots of stuff it pending. If I add up all my lotses, it turns out to be a fuck of a lot. I could do with a break from it all.
Elliott says, 'Situations get fucked up, turned around, sooner or later.'
You never learn anything from your successes. I'd like a period free from education.
I think part of the problem is a lack of context. Life isn't so much small pieces loosely joined as small pieces disjoined. I'd like something to bring them all together, something to provide a matrix within which everything else can comfortably sit. I just don't know what that matrix is. I don't know what I am looking for.
Maybe I'll recognise it when I see it.

Anonymous May 13, 2005 at 4:55 pm

I was in London today – I didn't know you were two or we could have met up! I did manage to venture into the Apple Store for the first time, and with perhaps a world record amount of self control, I left without having bought anything. I'm regretting it already.

Anonymous May 13, 2005 at 5:10 pm

>” I'd like something to bring them all together, something to provide a matrix within which everything else can comfortably sit.”
Brooke McEldowney said, “…a story is not a story until we find out what the characters want.”
Aaron Sorkin, the creator of West Wing, the successful telly show in the States, said, “The show didn't deal with where the characters came from or how they felt, We decided to deal with what each one wanted.”
Maybe your matrix is to be found in what you want. What is the deep down, passionate purpose that you know you are on the planet to fulfill. And then all the small pieces will become a mosaic that relates to how you are going to go about accomplishing it.

Anonymous May 16, 2005 at 12:44 am

Sounds like someone's looking for the philosopher's stone.

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