Golwg interview and Blog-City

I did an interview with Mai Williams of Golwg this afternoon. She emailed me Friday to ask if she could write a piece on Get Fluent and the troubles I’ve had with it. Of course I agreed, why wouldn’t I? But it felt odd. Like a book end. Golwg did a nice piece on me around this time last year, about Get Fluent starting, so it’s satisfyingly symmetrical that they should cover its demise also.

Mai asked me some intelligent, yet difficult, questions. Like why did I think that Get Fluent had problems, what am I going to do next, has the closure of Get Fluent hurt me personally. They were surprisingly hard to answer and not only because I didn’t want to sound too much like a negative whiny prick. I did find myself tearing up as I talked about how I feel about it all, despite trying to sound professional. I suppose the overwhelming emotion is still one of frustration and anger. A good idea gone to the wall because of a lack of support.

Talking about my future was very difficult, as I still don’t know what I’m going to do and that was hard to spin into any sort of positive light. Here I am, 32, and I have more in common with R, who’s 22, straight out of uni and undecided on what he’s going to do with the rest of his life, than I do with my friends who are my age. I’m not saying that everyone I know has their life sorted out, but most of them are in a better state than I am, that’s for sure.

We talked for half an hour, and I tried to find answers to questions that I don’t have any answers for, such as why am I so passionate about Welsh, and answers to questions that I didn’t really want to answer, such as why did it all go wrong. I was frank and honest in the interview, because I’m pathologically frank and honest, and I just hope that Mai will write something which doesn’t make me look like a total idiot. We shall see what we shall see.

Who knows. Maybe someone will read the interview, decide that Get Fluent and Clwb Malu Cachu are worth saving, and will step in with some dosh. Strangely, I find myself not holding my breath on that one.

By the way, if you’re having problems getting at the blog, then I think that’s because Blog-City appear to be trying to expand capacity and increase speed whilst not totally shagging up their service in the meantime. I really like what Blog-City are doing – their service has been so much better than my previous home at Blogger that I’m happy to hang on in there until they’re sorted. So please hang on in there with me.